glutton...

for punishment. why is it that the things (including people) we know are not necessarily good for us we keep letting into our lives? is it is that we are gluttons. we don't get enough of being treated poorly so figure that its better than being treated no way at all? i have to ask that question because i keep doing that myself. why? i'm a good person, don't i deserve better? of course i do, but i have an issue with letting go of things (including people). this is just me, but as far as people are concerned, i feel like if i cut someone out of my life then if something good happens to them i won't be around to enjoy it. but would i really be able to enjoy the moment if i remember all the not so good times with this person?