you down with g-o-d...

over the years i know that god has definitely blessed and kept me. but now when i need him most, i feel as if i have no relationship with him. i'm someone who as a child was at sunday school and church every sunday without fail. even if my mama didn't go with us, she made my brother and i go. that lasted up until i graduated college. in all that time i learned some bible verses and listened to thousands of sermons about hell and how to avoid the pitfalls of going there. but my relationship with god never grew or matured. now as i'm getting older i wonder about my relationship with god. most people don't know this about me but i've never been baptized. i do believe in god and have accepted him but that's it. i wonder sometimes if not having a better relationship is why my life is the way it is sometimes. don't get me wrong, i'm doing better than most people, but maybe - just maybe it could be better. i know we all go through things and that having a relationship with god does not mean you're exempt from going through stuff, but that relationship will help you deal. i know what i need to do...