totally unexpected

i got an email that was totally unexpected today. i don't know how to feel about it, whether its excited, unsure, scared...whatever. if this happens everything that i've planned up until now will change...but wasn't i talking about change in my last post, lol? so maybe i need to stop trying to plan my life according to what i want and just let Him "make it work" - yes i am quoting tim gunn from project runway (i love him!).

so on another note, i really hate living with "knee"groes sometimes. so i'm sitting here not more than and our ago and i keep hearing someone slam their apt door. i'm thinking, what the hayle? they really need to control that. so i step out out onto my patio to see what's going on and its my next door neighbor's daughter's boyfriend and i mean boy. apparently he got kicked out of their apt and they wouldn't give him his keys so he kept kicking the door. its none of my business, but i have issues with the whole thing 1) because the moma let this boy sleep over and stay in her house as if he was her own child 2) because they kept yelling about respect, but this whole situation started out without any respect (for boundaries) so now its a little too late to talk about r-e-s-p-e-c-t! but again, that's just me, its not my business.

i can't wait until friday!! i'm getting my hair fixed this weekend(yeah that sounds real country but hey what can i say, i'm a country girl) - if you knew me and had seen me over the last 4 weeks you would be excited too, lol! but anyway, since i'm about the officially turn 35 i want to change up somethings. so why not start with my hair. it's sort of like my security blanket. yeah, that probably sounds silly but hey, it is what it is. i want to get it cut, of course not to short because i'm not trying to do anything too drastic yet but this is a start. almost 4 months ago, i originally wanted to get it cut but chickened out. so we're going to try this again. when i told my beautician, she was like "you're gonna what?" but she'll do what i want in the end so i'm not worried. so i'm already cute, i'll just be cute with shorter hair, lol. *crossing my fingers that i can go through with it this time*