just once...

i want what i want, when i want it and how i want it. i don't want to have to wait. i'm not sure what the issue is with me today but i get so freakin' tired of being the patient, nice person. the only thing being nice and patient ever gets you is nothing! nada! zero!

i look around and it seems that everyone else always get what they want. all the time. maybe they go for it and just take a chance. i'm not at that point yet, where i can just throw caution to the wind. my personality doesn't even work like that. but if i'm not willing to take a chance, can i really complain about not getting what i want?

i just wanna scream right now. when am i'm going to get what i want? when is it going to be my turn? *sigh*