'07 reflections & thoughts...

i usually don't do resolutions because i know that i won't keep them. instead i say what i'd like to do and then hope i can make my goals become realities. i started '07 wishing for a few things: a new job, i wanted to become more active, i wanted to meet new people, and i wanted to try and come out of my shell. i can honestly say that three of the four things happened or began to happen by the end of the year. this year i'm also truly thankful for: my family (yeah, they get on my nerves but i still love'em) and my friends/sorors (who are down for me no matter what).

this year was definitely a good year, i learned a lot of lessons but in '08 the most important thing for me to learn and remember is to listen to my conscience and learn to let things and certain people go. i must realize that it doesn't do me any good keeping unnecessary people or things in my life. in fact those things or people may be blocking my blessings and keeping the necessary things/people from coming into my life.

speaking of blocking blessings...two weeks ago joel osteen was on bet one night. now usually i don't watch bet and would have changed the channel but that night he spoke of divine connections. i felt like i really needed to hear that message at that particular time. in short, we sometimes keep people in our lives that do us no good, yet we ask god when is our blessing coming (i.e financial, relationship, etc). how can he bring those people he has lined up for us to meet and be a blessing in our lives if we are still holding on to the old? we must have faith and believe that he has things worked out already, all we have to do is be open to receive our blessings.

i took that message to heart because i have 2 people in my life right now, one i've known for over 10yrs (d) and one who i met recently (let's call his azz "can't get right"). friend #1 (d) of 10 yrs IM'd me one day right around the time i was introduced to person #2 ("can't get right"). its funny because we hadn't talked much over the last two years but now we chat a little more frequently and its all good. i'm at ease with this person, i can talk to them about anything and everything and not worry about hurt feelings or censoring what i say and most importantly this person makes me laugh. i don't know what future may hold for us but i've been told to "never say never." person #2 - "can't get right", well let's just say its finally starting to sink in (yeah, just now) that this person is "just not into me." actions speak louder than words and those actions don't say much. so i wonder if by keeping person #2 in my life am i blocking whatever may/may not happen with person #1. who knows, but '08 will definitely be interesting - no matter what happens.