I listen to my friends talk about their respective husbands and significant others and I realize that I am so tired of being alone. I mean, I'm single and I believe I've come to enjoy the single life, I'm ok with doing things alone. But I would just love to be in the presence of another person, just cuddle with another person, kiss another person, laugh with another person, fight and make up with another person. I've never had a long term relationship. Well, if you count 6 months in 1997, I guess I have had what I'd call a short term - long term relationship. But I just want more. Is that too much to ask? I'm waiting on God to send the mate he's ordained me to be with, but sometimes I wonder is that ever going to happen. Then I have someone telling me this is my year, well last year was supposed to be my year. I pray about it and nothing. Sometimes, like right now I just want to cry. But I can't because that won't solve anything. The best I can do is to continue to pray and wait on God.